Monday, December 05, 2005
at 11:09 PM

tmr is 6k's gathering. 10am @ sentosa. but i've decided not to go. why?


hmm. i guess its hard to describe how i feel. sometimes i wish i hav a passion for sports like soccer or bball. lol. i mean thats wad most boys enjoy doing. i tried playing bball last yr, but it jus didnt work, no matter wad i suck. makes me feel worse abt bball. or when i fell down and make a fool of myself. haha. can you imagine, its Recreational Training, and the squad is having soccer, and while others are engrossed, are so enthusiatic abt the game, here you are walking arnd, hoping to let time pass more quickly. its easy to say 'why not jus join in and hav fun', but its hard to understand wad the person feels. take this example. its pe lesson, two captains from the class are to choose among the classmates and form a team each. it goes like student A will choose one guy, student B choose another, then A choose another and so on. the best players get chosen first. the lousy players last. so does that mean that during the game the ball will be more frequently passed to the better players rather than the lousy ones? most probably. so who are the ones who reli enjoy the game? even if someone passes you the ball, you anyhow zham and it goes out of the field, or it goes to ur opponent, you feel damn stupid. maybe you will think that ur teammates find you stupid too. you start to lose confidence, ur performance gets worse and in the end you totally hate soccer.


lets not wander too far off the topic. tmr is 6k's gathering @ sentosa. its either soccer, bball or swimming. lets not mention swimming at all. soccer and bball. i dun reli enjoy either. so i'll most likely be standing aside, watching my frens chasing the ball. alone. then i'll start to think of why i am alone. then i'll think of other stuff. like npcc. like the NICE pple in npcc. like seck bee choo or cwong. or my mom. but anyway its jus reli stupid. its a class gathering, and you are alone thinking of personal matters. if its a class gathering, its supposed to be fun.


lol. tmr is 6k's gathering @ sentosa. i've decided not to go. sry to all for being such a spoil sport.. yup and thx isaac.


well, guess thats all i hav to say. life is a gamble, its full of choices. it good to consider the pros and cons, but sometimes i guess we shld jus face it; the fact that you are the one who decides for urself, and sometimes its jus good to do wad you wan to do and not wad the pros and cons tell you to do.


anyway. for those going to gathering tmr, enjoy urselves! =)