Monday, October 08, 2007
at 5:37 PM

ahh i feel so shitty today.
i didnt go for captain's ball after signing up for it.
ky had to cover up for me saying i'm sick
and he had to find substitutes to take my place
and then it felt as though everyone becomes pissed with me
as though i'm like some ultimate loser
like some loner whom everyone hates and avoids
and although i've apologised to ky
and he said he's not angry with me
i know myself that i had been very irresponsible
and if i were him i would have ignored chong chen for life.
just like anyone else i simply cant stand irresponsible pple
and i know i've done something terribly wrong today
something which i cant even forgive myself.

today is the worst day of my life this year.
and i swear things like this are not gonna happen again.

and even ms yang noticed that i looked extremely glum so she messaged me to see if i'm alright.
thanks ms yang, even though you wont be reading this

and i bumped into mr tan and he waved at me so i waved back
then he asked me abt the physics paper and told me not to be worried about it

sometimes when it feels as though the whole world has turned its back on you
especially when its becos of something you did which is not right
i'm rly quite glad to know there are ppl who are still there for me
they are my friends, teachers, and of course, my family.