Thursday, January 31, 2008
at 9:32 PM

after some 17 hours of sleep i'm much better already, but still feeling rather drowsy. my entire day was spent lying in bed and that sucks. its a really lousy feeling, almost like i'm bedridden or sth. now i truely understand how it feels like to be one of the old men or women at the home for the aged. of course those people are in a far worse situation than me; it seemed to me that all they do is lie in bed 24/7, occasionally getting out of bed to pee/shower/eat. i cant imagine living that kind of life for the rest of my life.

back to sch tmr, but still considering whether or not to go training. will be too physically weak to bowl anyway, and francis wont understand that. i guess he has already more or less given up on me. its rather apparent, the way he speaks to me and to the others is different. well at least he tries to not make me feel bad. sigh.. a divs are not too far away and i'm getting really worried.

shall do some math now, been lagging badly in school too. sometimes i feel as though i'm pushing myself too hard when i'm actually going nowhere..

P.S. stop coming to my blog.