Monday, January 07, 2008
at 5:01 PM

i shall blog before my bro returns, i dont like to blog in his presence. blogging is the only avenue for me to vent my frustrations without letting my family know.

FOURTH DAY of school and all the shit is raining down on me already. i really dunno how to start but you see the thing is spreading like a bushfire and once it reaches her i'm gone.. knowing her character and even more so as guansen has pointed out i may just lose yet another friend. i really treasure the friendship with her and if someone decides to take it away from me there's nothing i can do. it sounds exaggerated la but thats just how i view the matter lorh. and i think i have myself to blame for not keeping things to myself and trusting others too easily. like what my parents always tell me, if you're too good to people (esp those who certainly dont deserve that kind of treatment) you'll only find them biting back at you and taking advantage of your good will. i look at my dad as an example, when his ex-colleagues are retrenched they called my dad up and ask him to recommend jobs. but when my dad was retrenched none of his friends could help. how reflective it is of the selfish nature of us human beings. and obviously the one who lands you into shit doesnt even care. they dont need to, right?

on to bowling i seriously dont like this particular someone in the team. well not only me, i can say at least 5 out of the 9 in the team share the same sentiments. why cant these people just fuck off and die. why do they have to bother you and make you feel worse? fuck.

i'm sorry i just have to write this down somewhere. i'm turning crazy.